XIA(Junsu) - Bokuga Shinouto Omottanowa
Album Introduction #
“Rediscovering masterpieces and great songs by unraveling and weaving them anew.” Ribbon Project ‘Bokuga Shinouto Omottanowa X XIA (Junsu)’ Collaboration Track
The 38th single “僕が死のうと思ったのは(Bokuga Shinouto Omottanowa)” by Nakashima Mika, released in 2013, contains an autobiographical message about “being sincere about living.” This beloved song, which gained immense popularity in both Japan and Korea through Nakashima Mika’s concert live videos, now delivers a message of hope and comfort to all those walking through difficult times through XIA (Junsu)’s voice.
[CREDIT]
Lyrics by Hiromu Akita
Composed by Hiromu Akita
Vocal by XIA (Junsu)
Piano by Kim Su Bin (AIMING), Lim Su Hyeok (AIMING)
Guitars by Song Hyeon Jong
Bass by Jo Se Hee (AIMING)
Cajon by Eun Ju Hyeon
Midi Programming by Kim Su Bin (AIMING), Lim Su Hyeok (AIMING)
String Arranged & Conducted by Kang Min Hun, Lim Su Hyeok @ Aim Strings
Strings by Yung String
Recorded by Na Su Min @ BAKE SOUND
String Recorded by Jeong Gi Hong (Asst. Choi Da In, Lee Chan Mi, Joo Ye Chan) @ Seoul Studio
Digital Edited by Kim Seon A @ MAJOR9 Studio
Mixed by Park Byeong Gwon @ SOUNDFROG
Mastered by Kwon Nam Woo (Asst. Yoo Eun Jin) @ 821 Sound Mastering
A&R Hong Eun Hye
Video Contents Lim Kyeong Hwan, Seong Bo Ra, Kim Jeong Eun
Artwork NONAME
Original title : Bokuga Shinouto Omottanowa
Original writer : Hiromu Akita
Original publisher : Sony Music Publishing (Japan) Inc.
Sub publisher : Sony Music Publishing Korea
Lyrics #
The reason I thought about dying
Was because seagulls kept crying at the pier
Let the waves carry away and erase
All the past, flying far away
The reason I thought about dying
Was because apricot flowers bloomed on my birthday
If I could sleep with the sunlight filtering through the leaves
Could I become soil with the fallen leaves?
Peppermints, lighthouse at the harbor
Rusty overpass and abandoned bicycle
Standing in front of the fireplace at the wooden station
My heart that couldn’t go anywhere
Knowing that today is no different from yesterday
To change tomorrow, I must change today
I know, I know, but still…
The reason I thought about dying
Was because my heart was completely empty
The reason I cry saying it won’t be filled
Is because I wish to be filled
The reason I thought about dying
Was because my shoelaces came undone
I’m still clumsy at fixing knots
Just like with relationships with people
The reason I thought about dying
Was because a boy was looking at me
Lying face down on the bed, repeating endlessly
Saying sorry to myself in the past
The dim light of the computer
Clattering sounds from upstairs
The ringing intercom
And the boy in a small room with ears covered
Fighting against invisible enemies
Don Quixote of a cramped studio apartment
Though the end will surely be harsh
The reason I thought about dying
Was because I was told I was a cold person
The reason I cry wanting to be loved
Is because I came to know human warmth
The reason I thought about dying
Was because you smile so beautifully
The reason I only think about death
Is surely because I’m sincere about living
The reason I thought about dying
Was because I hadn’t met you yet
This world where someone like you was born
I’ve come to like it a little
This world where someone like you will live
Sometimes makes me feel a little hopeful